tombstone

 When the time come, i need to die. no one can avoid that. when the time come, you need to say good bye to everything you love. when the time come, you can be free from things you hated. I am always prepared for my end, even though i am not that old. Somehow i am keep writing my last will and looking for place where i will buried. other people will think i am crazy, however this thing is not crazy, person can not predict when the person going to die, except the guy with 3rd degree burn everywhere. i want to be prepared person who can die any time when the time came. i will like to die early, not too early, but around 60's, because when i am old and weak, wasting the taxes, except when i become head of the huge company. that will be fun anyways, so i am not wanted to live longer than what ordinary people wants. i can not understand why all the people wants to live longest they can. it will be more painful time when you fall in coma forever. that will be hard time for my future family also. so at this blog i want to discuss about my tombstone, well i do not need big and huge tombstone however i want ordinary size, around 45cm height and 20 cm length. wow that is ideal size for me. i want when i borned and when i died. i was  planning not to marry, however, if i marry i want my wife's grave next to me. so i can talk with my grave while i waiting for train to heaven or hell. since my tombstone is big i need to decide what we need to put it in. i want my picture from old album and post it their with me. i want to remember how i lived and how i leave. this 21 century many people die out with diseases. cancer, tumor, HIV. mostly cancer will be one of the most biggest reason why. oh of course accidents are other reason, suicide could be one way, but i do not want to choose that way. if when the period came that all the people can live eternal life, i will rather die first than anyone. that world will be hard to live, when the person live eternal, it will be horrible as hell. there are specific time when people need to die and if that law break, i will feel bad and suicide. oh i think off from the topic, so i want my tombstone made by huge marble. well when i die there will be other trend to follow, but i will follow old way.

The television has a greater affect on people's lives than the telephone has: agree or disagree?

Television and telephone, one of the most innovative invention from man-kind. Imagine world without television and telephone. it will be boring and not exciting. of course there are several disadvantage of development. 

children lost their time to talk with parents or parent addicted to television and don't take care about the children. Also electromagnetic wave also effect the bod badly. it can give you disease and mental disorder. however, without television, the world will slow and boring, you need to read newspaper everyday for new news and visual effect is more easier to understand than just reading and minimum photos. Television become one of the biggest part of our life. The technology develop lead the better scale of television and also more information exchange quickly.'

New media come out quickly and changing their trend. More and more people want television and telephone. It evolve smaller and lighter.people want better equipment and want to be better than others own. they want different than other people and better. is pretty normal and that kind of desire make world develop faster. ok lets talk about telephone, telephone, in these days many people call as smart phone because it is so over useful than what one person needed. smartphone has too many utilities that can make the costumer attractive. many smart phone has overwhelm spec which mean, their cost is running over the

Define of success

Every people wants to success. Success is the word that you can receive it when you do hardest you can. That thing will give you great joy and honor. In my dictionary, success is define as the accomplishment which you wanted to make it.

For me, I want to become best hacker and information security. If you want to become hacker, you should know how to protect, if you want to be computer specialist who secure the information, you need to know how to hack and crack the computer. Is like black and white, shield and spear, student and teacher. they need to know each other for understand itself. Anyways, if i want to success as my definition, i need to be best. hmmmm lets talk about the job called as hacker and computer specialist. hackers are used to know as criminal, however, if you know how to access to other people's computer, you are already hacker. easy to go through the firewall and invade to inner system. but not leaving the personal information is more important, if you didn't erase the IP address, you will be tracked and counter-attacked by the opponents. I made a mistake that Chinese revived my information which i erased it three weeks ago. they finally track me back and revenge to me. however i didn't watch them screw my ass, so i attack back to that chinese with more complicated way.

 they finally email me for stop fighting and i also didn't want to fight against Chinese because, i know how huge network dose china has. and i was pretty scared about huge revenge.anyways we stop at that period and never met them again. it was big experience for me, not all chinese are good at hacking and not all of them are joined the network in china. My define of success is pretty simple but is hard. do hardest we can everytime it can be easier but worst thing you need to do. when i was 14, my dream was international lawyer, it was very hard thing to accomplish it. and that is why i came to saipan and study english, however i changed my mind to computer specialist

. It was really fortunate that i met the real international lawyer, he is one of my father's friend. he was tall, like 182 cm height and short hair cut. make him looks like sharpen sword.  i got inspiration from him. and he looks so nice on suit. so i changed my dream to international lawyer from pilot. i think it was smart choice to become international lawyer because it boosted my english skills and helped on my grade imporvement.

My bucket list

My bucket list will bit longer than other people’s one. Because I strongly believe that I am ambitious than any people you ever saw. When the person become ambitious, person will need more than what they have. And now let me introduce my bucket list. It will be ambitious and plotted thing you ever seen. My first one on my bucket list is space travel. Of course I have a plan. Before I go to the space, I need to make sure that I have a right body to go through the force. When the space ship passes the atmosphere, our body suffers tons of gravity, which can lead us to death. 

Before you travel to the space, you need to test your body that can endure on that much gravity while the space ship go through the atmosphere to zero-gravity place, what we call space. When your body reaches to the space, you can feel your body light. And you can float around the space ship. As a human being, most important thing is food, shelter and warmness. You have space ship for shelter and warmness, however food supplies, it is limited. You need to come back to earth anyways for food supplies. If you prepare enough food, it will be long and fun travel. Let’s talk about another bucket list. I had a lot when I was young; however this hard and fast society cut my bucket list. Every time people said impossible about my bucket list. They act different than my definition of impossible. So 2^nd thing on my bucket list is make people don’t scared about thing that they saying impossible. There are many way to face the impossible things, however that impossible thing came to me, when I suffering bad time. Some of the people who have disadvantages win that handicap, become like a hero. People who have two legs run 100m in 12 second, is not impressive. 
But person without one leg run 100m in 15seconds is really impressive. Person who has lacking of intelligence go to university. This thing will also impressive. When the person wins their disadvantage, they shine more than normal people. So the person like us have higher doorstep to go over. Let’s see who praise as success and wealth is. Ok, Bill Gates is one of the examples. He is rich and many people follow him. His donation helped African a lot. He make 100 dollar every second, and he spend that money not only for himself, for everyone around the earth. He is famous and bright, we saying he developed the 21^st century. I also believe that, because personal computer is a really innovative idea. One family one computer, his slogan worked and makes him rich and successful. I want to be like him; many people follow him and believe what he doing. We the people always see front, not a far future. Many people living just for tomorrow. Not for far future. And I was one of them, but now I will change myself. This is my second thing in my list. When I successfully travel the space and become a trustful person. I think that will be most happy.

My superpower

If I can receive the super power like Spider man, I will decide to receive the power that can change my body whatever what I want. 

I guess this superpower will be efficient and useful, because many other organisms such as human being are very easy to conceit themselves based on other people’s appearance. Specifically, like human being, which organism think and deepening their mind can easily daze by outer looking. But this power have one serious disadvantage, nobody will trust me in whatever or what kind of appearance I have. When if I can change my appearance, mean I lost my personal identity. Every living organism has their own identity, however when I start copycatting that identity, it will not same as the one before.

 

My identity will ambiguous. However, we have another advantage about it. If I can change my appearance permanently, lastingly, I am immortal. If I want to change myself as young baby, I can leave more than old grandfather is his cane. If I want to change the gender, it will be easier than what normal people going through. Doppelganger can be best example for that kind of situation. If I face my host, either host or I need to die. Exactly same living thing should not live under same place. Which can be most harsh and cruel rule for me and it will limit my ability. If the power has limitless, it will be horrible for other people innocence people. However is very attractive opportunity for me to conjugate my limitless power against world that with no power. I can be you or your parent or your friend or your enemy. Another big important advantage for me is that if I find out other people also have unbelievable super power; I can simply copy that person’s identities. It will lead me to have various powers. I will live eternal and have power that can lead me to ruin. But this power is so strong and effective that many people want to obey it. That can be new religion based on my teaching and my personal philosophical idea. God will blame himself about giving this superpower to me. I will superior to every single living organisms, I can become a God of new world, I mean this much power can make new world. If I go to all Christian with appearance of Jesus, I can make more believers to believe my religion, even other kind of religion. Some of people will envy me and jealous me but that kind of small non-power group will slowly decomposed by time going. It could be total dominance for the world and it will be one of the biggest historical events ever in human being’s history. And I also can achieve my one of my old nonsense dream, conquest of the earth. But I don’t have my own identity,

 which means I do not exist. If I have overwhelming amount of believers and followers, I lost my identity since I receive this nonsense, attractive and ambitious superpower. 

My favorite super hero

My favorite super hero is joker, who came out from 'Dark Knight'. I like him because, he show how innocence people can fall in madness and agony. One example is Harvey Dent, who was district attorney, when he jumped in to the problem in Gotham city, the dirty cashes and mobs, joker know that he is the ace in hole. So, when Harvey Dent fall in sadness about the loosing Rachel, heroin, Joker came up and lead Harvey Dent to corruption. When the joker explain about how Gordon and their team also bat man different with himself. I am not opposing about the Joker's idea. Any ways I want to say that batman isn't strong or mentally stronger than joker, so he fail to kill him and batman rule need to change for save the Gotham better place. Batman had more money, more assistant and more talented person, but he can not stop the joker's work. Joker start out his plan with 0 and he reach to the title the horrible criminal in Gotham's history.

The Joker's existence is hinted at the end of the 2005 film Batman Begins, where Jim Gordon (Gary Oldman) reveals the existence of an armed robber who leaves Joker playing cards at scenes of his crimes. He later appears as the main antagonist of the 2008 sequel, The Dark Knight, portrayed by Heath Ledger, who told Sarah Lyall of The New York Times that he viewed that film's version of the character as a "psychopathic, 

mass murdering, schizophrenic clown with zero empathy.

"Film critics, co-stars Maggie Gyllenhaal and Michael Caine and many of Ledger's colleagues in the film community joined Bale in calling for and predicting a nomination for the 2008 Academy Award for Best Supporting Actor in recognition of Ledger's performance in The Dark Knight. Ledger's subsequent nomination was announced on January 22, 2009, the anniversary of his death; Ledger went on to win the award, becoming the second person to win a posthumous Academy Award for acting, after fellow Australian actor Peter Finch, who won for 1976's Network. The award was accepted by Ledger's family. Ledger also won the Screen Actors Guild Award for Best Supporting Actor, the Golden Globe Award for Best Supporting Actor – Motion Picture, and the BAFTA Award for Best Actor in a Supporting Role. On November 10, 2008, he was nominated for two People's Choice Awards related to his work on the film, "Best Ensemble Cast" and "Best Onscreen Match-Up" (shared with Christian Bale), and Ledger won an award for "Match-Up" in the ceremony aired live on CBS in January 2009.

My favorite super hero

Deadly sins

Today I will write journal about the 7 main sins. First one is Lust, is the desire of sexual things such as love and sex. In my opinion, lust is on of the most attractive and strong sin. If you are man kind, lust will hurt your future anyways. You can not live without other gender. Second deadly sin is gluttony, which symbolize the desire of eating stuff, it will hurt your health also your life, heavy body, heavy life. Next deadly sin is greed. Most of people and all of animal have greed about everything what they want.

 

This sin can occur violence such as fight or war. It can be most destructive sin. Next sin is sloth, which closely related with gluttony, which make you feel lazy about everything, it can call as sin of degeneration, laziness keep slow the development, if we were sloth for rest of our life, we will stay as primitive life. Next sin is wrath, which sin make you loose mind and make your emotion sensitive and fragile, it can be destructive, not much as greed. Wrath is the same as rage, it can help you for reach the goal,

 

however it will need a lot of sacrifice. Next one is envy, envy is one of the most biggest reason of breaking relationship such as couple of male and female, or friendship, trust and believes. Trait could be right word for envy, also it described as sorrow of the another's good, jealous. Last sin would be pride, it is really positive word , however when it overwhelm, it can lead you to reasonless rage and make you ruin. Pride could be describe as self love, love your self so much make an unstoppable pride that will lead you fallen.

Each picture show how sins are imagine. They are scary but we need them, they are such a dangerous but is recommanded as a human being. We need greed for feel pride from other people and you can get gluttony and lust from it, many people will envy you and try to ruin you. and sometimes you need sloth for short break, The seven sins are always inside of human and always try to take over our body. Make your self mind clear and try to win against this deadly seven sins, you can capture your success when you win all of those sins.

Today I’m going to talk about my favorite trip since I born. First of all, I traveled many countries around Southeast Asia, north Asia and south Asia. My favorite on was China, because I lost 15pounds after travel. 

I’ll tell you why I lost my weight later, anyways it was first day of the trip, and it was excited, interesting and hard to fall in sleep. That was beginning of my nightmare. I slept at late morning plane. That make me cannot sleep at hotel and make my body too tired. First day at the Beijing was ugly like popped watermelon. Second day morning of Beijing, dirty air pocking my lungs and my eye was dry. Many people passing me, here is market place. We came out from hotel to have beautiful Chinese style breakfast. We went to noodle place to grab some noodle, check around for other place to eat, because that noodle place was so popular, people was crowding like legion of ants. We found less crowding place, which selling soup and bread. It was very special because that bread was made by expert baker. It was nice to eat boiled milk with well toasted bread. We move away from biggest marketplace of Beijing and went to Tian’an men square, which was biggest square in China.

 

It was impressively huge and crowding people. That make me impression about writing book, about how the Tian’an men square could develop and there was such a wonderful place to invest. Our group went to museum covered about history of Tian’an men. That place was really important spot for many revolution occur past 300 years. One of the most important spot for Chinese and other rest of the country placed around it. We went to Chin’s big ass grave too. It was too huge make us walk almost 5 hours to look through it, however it was not end of the schedule, Now we move our hotel to Nanjing, where pretty far from Beijing, and we need to move by train. Chinese train was not bad as I thought, it has small store inside of train, and bar was placed other side. It was long train trip so we had soft bed for heal my cruel body. When I woke up I saw beautiful sun rise and it was so beautiful make my feeling delicate. When we arrive to Nanjing station, we needed to go through the luggage check and show the passport, because we were tourist.

 

Nanjing was very sad city, it had historical had memory when the japan invade the part of China, Japanese solider rape the Nanjing people out of nowhere. I felt sad about Korea had similar thing when Japan invade Korea. We went to museum again, which built for sorry to people who died at Nanjing during Japan invasion. It was well built, I think Korea need to build the stuff like China to make Japan feel sorry about what they did at past. It was short travel, but it was useful and very educative travel I think, I really feel thanks to my parents send me to China and thanks to the camp chef which used to make us ugly disgusting food every single meal make me lost almost 15pounds after travel, my mom suggest me to go travel again, I strongly disagree about it and never went to China again.

My favorite metaphor of love

Today journal, we will talk about the metaphor or love. 

Let's see what is the metaphor first, metaphor is the method which you distort your word which you mean or change the phrase as figurative sense. And let's define the word love. Love, such a wonderful word which all kind of living thing like it and want it, is the feeling and emotion of kindness or be devoted to other. I am the guy who did not fall in love yet, so my definition can be paradoxical ,because the author never fall in the love discuss about love? well this is pretty dumb. But the people who did not fall in love can make metaphoric phrase more cheesy. Because, people who fall in love are blind since they fall in love. Ok, now we really start talk about my favorite metaphor of love. I know some of them from book and movies, and my favorite one is this, "Love make you blind", when I saw this phrase, like 'wow' light bulb just blinked 2 seconds. I cannot understand this phrase, however I agree about this phrase. "Some" of my friends got fall in love. And every single time their reactions are same like textbook. They become so dumb and cannot recognize what are they doing. Things like, having a meal with "them" and pay for it, I just wanted to slap on their face and scream on them " Are you insane or some kind of brain tumor stick on it?" Between friends, we usually "dutch pay", which mean pay half when my friend and I buy something we going to share. I cannot give you specific name of him, but that guy was worse miser I ever saw, and one day he told me he just fall in love with one girl, one of my friend, and bribe me to make relationship with her, could you guess how much he gave me just make a relationship with her? 40 bucks, 40 bucks!! I just said to him, "I guess you are drunk….. you really bribe me 40 bucks for that girl? are you freaked or you decided to suicide?" He begging me earnestly, so I decide to make a little heart between them, it was successful, she doesn't had bad impression about him, and when miser guy (I just decided to call him as 'miser guy') dash to her, she showed interest. So this story pretty seem happy ending, however bottom line is that he needed to give up his resolution,

 

'SAVE $2000 IN MY BANKBOOK!!', well it was all capitalized and bold, plus it's times new roman, he was serious about his resolution. However, love stopped miser guy's resolution and make him spend almost $700 while he had relationship with her. I am not sure he still loving her, I wish he stop the love immediately so he can continue his resolution, only 4 months left for your resolution dumb blind man! Anyways bottom line is this, love is the transcend and supernatural feeling which make you blind and make you thinkless. In this journal, you can see I just criticize the love, however love is such a wonderful thing that everyone going to experience it. When the time come, do not scare, just accept it and make sure do not fall in love seriously.

Describe my self

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Describing myself

August 13, 2013

 In this journal, I will describe myself, my appearance, my habits and my life. 

 First of all, I'm gonna describe my appearance. 
My height is almost 173 cm and I have pretty chubby body and my arm and leg is muscular. My face is  not clean as others, because I'm suffering worst season of my life, and having war with skin trouble. Also I had my bad year when I was 3 years old, which I had skin disease which hurt my skin a lot. But it became cool down, when I came to Saipan. Also this is why I came to Saipan. This humid, clean air climate make my skin heal, and make me escape from hell of skin disease. Anyways, my skin is not clean as others. My eye is not usual as others, because my eyebrow curved when it start to grow. It start poking my eye when I was 7. So I visit hospital like my house for remove my eyebrow. I remove it whole elementary school because my eye hurt like hell. Also it gave me some bad effect, for example when I swim, my eyebrow is too long, so my eyebrow roll down that poke my eye again. My father also had that kind of thing, so he took surgery for fix that. My mom said I'll also do that surgery when I'm become 20. I'm little bit scared about it, because I never take surgery since when I born. My nose is not big also not small, like total normal person's nose, I can not call this as perfect nose of human being, but I don't hate my nose. My hair is short these days because my dad hate long hair and summer was so hot at Korea. He dragged me to the salon shop and force me to cut my hair. So my hair was worse than what I thought. Than it is not a nice thing to me because I had a bad time with my short hair sometimes.




So the bottom line is that I having bad out looking, however I'm keep working on it, so closest future, I can make my body as best fit on me.